A week after I published my first book, IMPACT, I was in the ER with what I thought was heart issues, but turned out to be an anxiety attack. I had NEVER suffered an anxiety attack before in my life. I was floored. After all, I wasn't the type of person who suffered anxiety attacks. Read the before mentioned commercial fishing on the Bering Sea. Those who know me, also know that I'm a bit of a thrill seeker. The older I get, the more thrills I seem to need. My dad was a race car driver. My grandfather a bush pilot. My grandmother was always loaded for bear. My mother is a little wild herself (never know what that woman is going to do). Plenty of genes in that pool to hype up my DNA. I have a few kids of my own who don't look before they leap either. So the idea of an anxiety attack really threw me, though I did enjoy the valium. A little too much maybe.
March 18th of this month I will be releasing EDGE, my first full-length novel. And here we go again. I suffered my first anxiety attack in months this weekend. Bring on the valium! That is what I'd like to do. But funny thing about valium, it makes me drool. Not pretty. Turns out one of the biggest, scariest thrills for me is releasing a new book. I don't know if it will ever get any easier. I guess we're about to find out, as I will be releasing four full length novels this year.
Hmm...maybe I should get the valium refilled?
I showed you mine, now you show me yours. What scares you? And don't say spiders. We are talking something bigger than a shoe can squash. Give.